alliSunshine::My Song of A Thousand Words

iLIKE

2011-02-12T02:12:00.002+08:00

i like this: (from http://theclosetlover.livejournal.com/70993.html)

dancing pixies tunic.......................... =D

i SUPER SUPER SUPER like it!!! =D i like pretty things... hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm... =D

=]

2011-02-08T22:57:00.004+08:00

Dear dear Monster,

thank you for who you are to me... thank you for loving me for who i am - inside and outside... thank you for choosing me to be your life partner... i love you, and i look forward to whatever the future holds for us in God's plan - i have you, and you have me.

Your other monster-half,

Monssy.

you should know this

2010-11-16T00:32:00.000+08:00

i hate last minute things.

Monssy to Monster

2010-10-28T01:13:00.001+08:00

A 2-year journey of love and craziness, an anniversary we both forgot...

just wanna say - i love you. =]

AHHHHHHHH iLIKE~!!!

2010-10-27T01:26:00.001+08:00

http://www.kvoll-fashion.com/product_details.php?category_id=58&item_id=3684

i want!!! :(

China Tigger

2010-09-26T00:14:00.001+08:00

Dear dear said Tigger's chinese name is 'tiao4 tiao4 hu3'...

Allison Koh's version: TOING TOING HU...

HARHAR :D

true love isn't all about saying 'i love you'

2010-09-25T23:43:00.002+08:00

*food for thought*

MUCUS flowing from on high... flu again... sinus again...

dear ... and ...

2010-09-18T22:42:00.001+08:00

should i stop loving you both...

bug & ju - the neh family

2010-09-14T23:23:00.003+08:00

=] soul sisters... gina and julia... u gals are awesome... we've changed, but i love u 2 still!!! =]

it 's been so long... individually, we all change... i think friendships that are good are like puzzle pieces that adapt and change but still fit one another... the picture created changes over time, just as the individual pieces change and get modified... but one thing's for sure - the pieces are like glued together... stuck for life... friends, to me, are like the people you love and yet don't marry...

HARHAR. =] *i love laughing*

turn, new road

2010-09-09T00:46:00.003+08:00

gone were the days we see each other week after week, meeting after meeting... no more gossiping... those once against each other have become surprisingly great friends...

=] UoN 308... keep in touch... =] it was an honour and blessing to know all of you... =]

to be consumed

2010-08-31T13:24:00.001+08:00

ARHHH this is so cute =D

Your wife is not:...

to be consumed

2010-08-31T13:09:00.000+08:00

http://www.ronedmondson.com/2009/03/winning-back-the-heart-of-your-wife.html

saw this; interesting; opinions opinions opinions...

2010-08-24T00:48:00.000+08:00

looking at NOT the girl, NOT the dresses... hmmm... http://sevendresses.livejournal.com/

interesting heh.

Quote: Klassen & Freling 2000

2010-08-23T14:52:00.000+08:00

You alone stand above the earth, but You have chosen willingly to also stand beside me.

stress

2010-08-22T00:41:00.005+08:00

i still feel the stress of being alive, despite the end of my exams officially...

i gotta get my groove back for piano and music, i gotta go get a job, i gotta go earn money, i gotta go see a doctor to make me pretty and perfect looking, i gotta go to the dentist, i gotta clean my room, i gotta prepare to start my term in January for a Tourism module, i gotta earn money, i gotta prove to my parents, i gotta prepare for my future (or yours?), i gotta save money to get married, i gotta plan my career, i gotta improve my qualifications, i gotta save money for my family, i gotta... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... all the things i gotta do, they are what people say i should do... i've been doing what people tell me to do my WHOLE LIFE...

WHEN can i SIT DOWN and NOT DO ANYTHING?

yeah, "NEVER" 's the word.

all the talk about 'o, after university you're free to relax and explore the world' and 'getting to experience new stuff and see cool things alone' and crap... i don't buy it - i got conned.

i think stress does not come from the things i do, it comes when i do them for other people.

*stab*

breathe, then read.

2010-08-19T22:59:00.001+08:00

http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=407640990562&id=743662869

what does anyone think of this?

keep moving forward, says Cornelius Robinson (the cartoon guy, not the criminal)

2010-08-19T01:34:00.002+08:00

Allison Koh, you will be better. you were great, now u suck, but you will be better.

YOU WILL BE BETTER.

my cute earthly father who FARTED an explosion while we were in the lift -.-

2010-08-16T21:28:00.002+08:00

when asked what he would name his dog if he had one, 'Doggie' was his triumphant reply.

my mum, sis and myself were flabbergasted and amazed at dad's lame wow-ness.

=] thank You, God for family - even if these times were sparse, precious memories they will be...

waves FRANTICALLY in the AIRRRRRRRRRRR

2010-08-16T13:48:00.002+08:00

arrrrrRRRRRRHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH aaaAAAAAAhhhHHH

WaTeR in my EARS!!!!!!

a TEAM

2010-08-15T22:24:00.002+08:00

is defined as 'a small number of people with complementary skills who are committed to a common purpose, set of performance goals, and approach, for which they hold themselves accountable' (Katzenbach & Smith 1993)

The Brewing of Soma by John Greenleaf Whittier

2010-08-15T19:38:00.001+08:00

"These libations mixed with milk have been prepared for Indra:
offer Soma to the drinker of Soma."
--Vashista, translated by MAX MULLER.

The fagots blazed, the caldron's smoke
Up through the green wood curled;
"Bring honey from the hollow oak,
Bring milky sap," the brewers spoke,
In the childhood of the world.

And brewed they well or brewed they ill,
The priests thrust in their rods,
First tasted, and then drank their fill,
And shouted, with one voice and will,
"Behold the drink of gods!"

They drank, and to! in heart and brain
A new, glad life began;
The gray of hair grew young again,
The sick man laughed away his pain,
The cripple leaped and ran.

"Drink, mortals, what the gods have sent,
Forget your long annoy."
So sang the priests. From tent to tent
The Soma's sacred madness went,
A storm of drunken joy.

Then knew each rapt inebriate
A winged and glorious birth,
Soared upward, with strange joy elate,
Beat, with dazed head, Varuna's gate,
And, sobered, sank to earth.

The land with Soma's praises rang;
On Gihon's banks of shade
Its hymns the dusky maidens sang;
In joy of life or mortal pang
All men to Soma prayed.

The morning twilight of the race
Sends down these matin psalms;
And still with wondering eyes we trace
The simple prayers to Soma's grace,
That Vedic verse embalms.

As in that child-world's early year,
Each after age has striven
By music, incense, vigils drear,
And trance, to bring the skies more near,
Or lift men up to heaven!

Some fever of the blood and brain,
Some self-exalting spell,
The scourger's keen delight of pain,
The Dervish dance, the Orphic strain,
The wild-haired Bacchant's yell,--

The desert's hair-grown hermit sunk
The saner brute below;
The naked Santon, hashish-drunk,
The cloister madness of the monk,
The fakir's torture-show!

And yet the past comes round again,
And new doth old fulfil;
In sensual transports wild as vain
We brew in many a Christian fane
The heathen Soma still!

Dear Lord and Father of mankind,
Forgive our foolish ways!
Reclothe us in our rightful mind,
In purer lives Thy service find,
In deeper reverence, praise.

In simple trust like theirs who heard
Beside the Syrian sea
The gracious calling of the Lord,
Let us, like them, without a word,
Rise up and follow Thee.

O Sabbath rest by Galilee!
O calm of hills above,
Where Jesus knelt to share with Thee
The silence of eternity
Interpreted by love!

With that deep hush subduing all
Our words and works that drown
The tender whisper of Thy call,
As noiseless let Thy blessing fall
As fell Thy manna down.

Drop Thy still dews of quietness,
Till all our strivings cease;
Take from our souls the strain and stress,
And let our ordered lives confess
The beauty of Thy peace.

Breathe through the heats of our desire
Thy coolness and Thy balm;
Let sense be dumb, let flesh retire;
Speak through the earthquake, wind, and fire,
O still, small voice of calm!

1872.

[The end]
John Greenleaf Whittier's poem: Brewing Of Soma

The Intrinsic Motivation Principle of Creativity

2010-08-15T19:15:00.003+08:00

Founded by Teresa M. Amabile and her team of associates...

The principle states that 'people will be at their creative best when they feel motivated primarily by the interest, satisfaction, and challenge of the work itself - and not by external pressures'...

how dumb man can be

2010-08-15T18:15:00.003+08:00

Quote: The words are from a long narrative poem, “The Brewing of Soma.” It describes Vedic priests going into the forest and drinking themselves into a stupor with a concoction called “soma.” They try to have a religious experience and contact the spirit world. It is after setting that scene that Whittier draws his lesson: “Dear Lord, and Father of mankind, forgive our foolish ways…” This hymn is as relevant today as when it was written. In a modern context, it speaks to the drug culture, and those looking for an “experience” to prove the reality of God.

my future

2010-08-15T01:32:00.001+08:00

i look GOOD in business attire...

but, even better, i look AWESOME in concert attire...

=] be proud of me, daddy mummy?

hungry

2010-08-15T00:02:00.001+08:00

Dear God, i think You made too large a stomach for me... I'm human - not from Monster's Inc.

How now - i eat like no tomorrow everyday...

dear God, i wrote a new song for You today

2010-08-14T23:40:00.002+08:00

Since You know my heart, could You have heard it before every note was written? Since You know my heart, could You have already composed it before every phrase was constructed? Since You know my heart, could You have decorated the melody and played with its harmony, and could You have already sung the symphony before the story was written?

You're awesome, God... =]

at the end of the race i see another and yet another

2010-08-14T23:36:00.003+08:00

how far must i run to keep away from you? do you want me to face you and tell you to get out? why must you keep appearing in my dreams?

go away - i will not destroy nor waste my life because of what you did to me.

i'm strong...

Ain't I, Father? Was that good enough? I'm gonna get better; right?

22:22

2010-08-13T22:25:00.001+08:00

so it really means so much to you...

stools fool

2010-08-05T13:46:00.001+08:00

something's wrong with my system...

Monster says enough of cereal...

but i want................................................................ i want Waffles Crisp, Cupcake Pebbles, Fruity Pebbles, Corn Flakes, Honey Stars, and i want many many more!!!

OOOSH - hungry... =D

Study hard, and real hard, Allison Koh...

2010-08-05T13:45:00.001+08:00

=] Tiggers cheering for me!!! yay =]

Tigger

2010-08-05T13:42:00.002+08:00

Tigger told me to study real hard, den when i come back home tonight i can play with all of them... =D

BARRRRRHARAR. Fluffy is so C_U_T_E!!!

All my Tiggers are SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the kid fell; Jesus picked him up, smiled and walked with him - Jesus never left

2010-08-01T23:55:00.005+08:00

music and tinkles, daily, they rise anew; but one man, one soul, one heart to be renewed.

life and death, together or apart; friends, family, loved ones, Tiggers and all, but, one and only, my Jesus, from my side He never parts...

crazy smile

2010-08-01T21:41:00.002+08:00

*shriek* ahhhhh i like the new clouds in the background =D i'm retarded... my mouth is hungry...

anyway, was reading Our Daily Bread while pooping... share something:

If we march through life pretending to smile while inside we bleed, we dishonor the relationship. - Philip Yancey

btw, Monster, frog meat in chinese is supposed to be sweet chicken (tian-ji)... not field chicken... i win. =] love, Monssy, the smart one...

brain bubble

2010-07-30T01:00:00.001+08:00

you really thought i didn't know...

my weird dad

2010-07-29T21:45:00.002+08:00

he was asking me and mum about this bird's eating behaviour...

see, there was this frequent visitor every morning at our kitchen window [that faces a blank wall btw]... my dad always sees him [the bird] there... so last night he decided to put bread out on a silver platter [just a stainless steel metal bowl] for the bird...

behold, the bird did not turn up, so my dad was curious and so bewildered... i'm like thinking, he actually look amazed and happy that there's a bird, like, a BIRD, visiting our kitchen every morning...

i gave mum a -.-|||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||| face... she said, must be 'cos his [my dad's] 2 daughters are always out and back late and sleeping late and he doesn't really get to see us...

-.-|||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||

o btw, my dad recently bought Levi's jeans... yar, Levi's jeans... its really, the real Levi's... years ago, just a S$5 slipper he say expensive and not worth it... so now he says 'i'm becoming cool now'... HARHARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR [the cue for u to roar with laughter now]... i'm like, i should totally go to church in prom dresses and prance about in a lady-like manner...

you are weird

2010-07-29T01:13:00.002+08:00

I think we're different - we have different standards.

I think we're different - when we critically analyse, it seems that I am excessively and overly critical.

I think we're different - just face it; i have higher standards than you, and you and i do not agree.

Say, piano... You can go ahead and think normal playing is enough, i shall and will go ahead to think that only above average and distinction-standards is enough. It's where we set the ceiling - mine's higher than yours. Stop comparing, i do not live in your world, i live on earth, and btw in my world, you're boring.

iLOVE

2010-07-28T00:52:00.001+08:00

Nodame, u're SO CUTE!!! i LURVE your ROOM!!! =] hopefully one day i can be like her. =] i don't mind having like near 100 Tiggers and soft toys all around my room... =]

iThink

2010-07-14T16:43:00.002+08:00

now i know what audacity looks like.

"effrontery or insolence; shameless boldness"...

look at them

2010-07-04T22:42:00.002+08:00

was just looking into Facebook, seeing all my UoN batch mates in the UoN ball... prom thingy... all looking gorgeous and really beautiful and... sometimes, just thinking if the sacrifices i make for the things i love, compared to the friends and potential friends that i've missed out on being with... was it worth it...

today, Pastor Fuji said we're to remember, simply, what would Jesus do? so to me, while going for the ball thingy and all that seemed 'world'-kinda stuff... getting pretty, going out, celebrating, going crazy, etc... but then again, those were friendships dear to me that i guess i have neglected... while they were havin' fun and going all out to be looking their best at the ball, i was in church doing stuff... events, ministry, service...

were they worth it? i guess it'd be too early to compare fruit of friendship in school versus fruit in ministry, but either way, i choose and i chose ministry... i think that's what Jesus would do... yeah i know i could 've had a balanced life with school, family, friends, going out, church... but then again, so could Jesus... but he didn't go out and have fun - he put all he had for us, for me...

eventually, i think my decision was right... because i think i will be storing up treasures in heaven... instead of just pretty memories on earth... =]

just a thought. =]

those men and women, they go together

2010-06-26T01:27:00.003+08:00

i have no rest day. i'm tired. i'm Tired TIred TIRed TIREd TIRED. and i'm obligated to cover for my own ass and protect myself from what other people say. and then there's those men and those women, and somehow i'm supposed to do this and that and many other STUPID MEANINGLESS duties just to make sure i'm PROVEN innocent.

i tell u what - i don't give a damn. i'm tired i want to rest i just want to finish my work, all my crazy assignments, get over those exams and sleep a hundred years.

i'm sick of people giving half who tell me i don't give enough. i've stopped this that everything i neglect those people and my piano is so damn rotten now. my fingers don't play music anymore, my voice is not for singing, my life is just 'i'm so busy and tired' and i live to be moulded into someone else's ideal updated version of Allison Koh. PLS u might as well just kill me because my life has lost everything dear to me other than God and u still want more.

i spell

that woman and that man

2010-06-18T23:51:00.002+08:00

she who is to love me most just said i'm ugly today...

the man who walks with me made my day, regardless of how horrible it was... today.

just thinking

2010-05-26T22:22:00.002+08:00

I.AM.GOING.TO.BURST.

I.AM.TIRED.

I'm grateful for the concern, but what i need is rest.

just thinking

2010-05-24T00:35:00.001+08:00

dear Tigger dears, i talk to you all most... thank you for soaking up my tears and mucus... thank you for being soft and cuddly even when i'm angry...

thank you for reminding me of...

just thinking

2010-05-24T00:27:00.002+08:00

i guess after awhile, a little while longer, and that teeny bit more... those don't really matter anymore, do they?

what does it mean, sitting opposite of you who scrambled for things to do...

i miss conversations.

blar

2010-05-05T23:28:00.001+08:00

FYI... i have a yellow Woh-Woh... and i have FLUFFY!!! =]

HEEEEEEE HEEEEEEEEEEEEEE... =] woh woh is a dog... Fluffy is a large baby Tigger =] arrhhhhhhhhh they are so cute!!! =] i'm gonna have fellowship with them =] heehee... they're not very good at English though... HAHA =] i can tutor them!!! =]

*crazy*

just thinking

2010-05-05T23:20:00.002+08:00

if i get back to composing, i will need to bring manuscript paper, foolscap paper, pencil, eraser, highlighters, black pen... and my genius-ness... i will need a suitcase.

-.- classical songs are boring... ya right... they're all i can think of. and i LURVE that complicated song my neighbour was playing!!! i bet it's some new exam piece or somethin'... AWWWW so jealous... i want that too. =] it has pentatonic scales and the SO-NICE feel... =] heeeeeheeeeee...

Dear God, i miss my piano...

blar

2010-05-05T23:10:00.002+08:00

i was just lookin' at another blog... seeing people do things for cell... i like. =] then again... takes alot of work...

attended leadership and entrepreneurship lecture that day... had some ideas... but... if things are gonna change, i just think that starting from middle-management will not do... if u wanna start from the TOP, start from the TOP.

AGM was like O.O woah... wonder if they'd have that kinda reaction when they have a meeting in heaven... slashing each other and all... where's the love, man...

i'm bored... hungry... but i'm fat... but i'm really hungry... or no, i just want something in my mouth. =( not good...

BUT I WAS REALLLY HUNGRY!!! :( haix...

i kept losing the zitch-dog/bird/plug game to Monster(2)... grrrrr... i wanna win.

last term already... fridays, mostly free... evenings care group... i gotta sacrifice piano... again... i'm SO not gonna be good enough to teach... i don't like it, but i really cannot meet my own expectations and that SUCKS... where's all my passion and discipline man... ugh. allison... allison... drop the BOMB lar... hurry up... -.-

*hungry* *i'm eating Waffles Crisp* *smiling like an idiot* *turning around in my chair* *neighbour saw me* *i pretended to not have seen that*

-.-

someone said to me

2010-04-13T21:22:00.002+08:00

because both can't co-exist, the cold hard outer covering would one day extinguish the fiery passion inside... unless the fire is strong enough...

iAM

2010-03-04T20:21:00.002+08:00

iAM a daughther of God the Most High... beloved princess of God my Father... precious Child of the Heavenly King... =] for always...

if and so

2010-03-04T20:04:00.000+08:00

if God starts a family through love, what's a family without love...

if and so

2010-03-04T19:21:00.002+08:00

Dear daddy and mummy, it hurts sometimes you know... most of the time, actually... you do know, right? If you love, so as you say you do love me, then why do you say such things to me?

quote

2010-03-02T23:19:00.002+08:00

from Desiree the Sea-Lion/Walrus... 'because it takes two to whisper quietly'...

if and so

2010-02-14T00:11:00.001+08:00

if i need help, so how?

if and so

2010-02-11T13:11:00.002+08:00

if people can be selfish in the world, and they can't even go the opposite way for a little while when they're in the house of God... so pitiful a world we live in.

one notch higher

2010-02-05T15:27:00.003+08:00

i'm thinking of migrating to Neverland... i want to remain being a kid... and i want to fly like Peter Pan...

why do i have to go to school? why do i need a degree? why do i have to aim to be better than everybody else? why should i have to put up a false front for them to see? why would i want to forsake important for something i don't want? why do i encourage people to say things about me? why do i keep things to myself? why do i think so far?

i won't have to explain myself. i don't like doing things for the sake of doing so. i won't show off my abilities; neither will i show off my areas of stupidity. i don't like rumours. i will not be involved in those. i won't say A and do B. i don't like not practising what i preach.

i just like being me. take it.

iThink

2010-01-31T23:51:00.002+08:00

sometimes things wouldn't have to be so bad. we let opportunities slip, we miss the crucial tip, we cry and weep and no good comes to it. sometimes it's not that she didn't say it or ask... sometimes it's about the person on the other end...

some things never have to or should be said again... there may not be the need anyway, or the want...

my outer being

2010-01-31T23:41:00.004+08:00

pleasing God, and pleasing man... pleasing the eyes of the One above, and those of the ones around - near and far... bowing to the Most High, and bowing to those around like a servant...

since when was pleasing man that necessary...

my self will never be the same... one with my outer being, but separate and individual... she will be one individual many others will never meet... only my outer self would have met her and will see her...

a veil, new clothes, gloves, and shoes... mark my words, both nouns and some specific verbs... many new ways, one, still, being; many different circumstances, in one same lifetime...

i write

2010-01-31T23:35:00.003+08:00

i write letters to myself... i leave small little messages around to make myself happy... i give myself flowers here and there... =]

her story was sad

2010-01-31T22:59:00.002+08:00

i don't believe that only Jesus can be a friend... i don't believe that only God's footprints can be seen alongside... i just think that human's footprints tend to be lagging behind or way in front or even going another direction - never beside...

if only humans try more to be like Jesus.

M is a no-no

2010-01-30T15:36:00.000+08:00

things will change... and i guess i won't have a choice to it.

fear factor

2010-01-28T22:37:00.002+08:00

dear dear asked me...

3 choose 1... all equal meal portion.

bugs (madagascar hissing cockroaches - known to be very juicy) covered in chocolate
abalone in extreme spice sauce (ma-lar-huo-guo kind of spicy)
durian (extremely pungent good stuff)

-.-|||

he wanted to change the first one to 'chocolate ants in ice cream'... i said no way - it was alive!!!

and he says alot of thing i eat used to be alive too. -.-

he's still stuck on the idea of wrapping my present in a durian shell... T.T for crying out loud...

my answer shall be revealed at a later date and time. =D

Jesus, thank You

2010-01-28T00:37:00.001+08:00

Lord, You make all the tears and pain worthwhile... =] stay with me please.

Joanna is mad?

2010-01-27T20:02:00.002+08:00

i'm talking to Joanna NOW. this instant.

she told me i must accept the fact that she's crazy. i'm like -.-...

i told her 'yar! accepted it and dealing with it!'.

and Joanna laughs like crazy again.

ya - again.

hate is a strong word

2010-01-26T21:51:00.008+08:00

he comes home drunk friday nights. he's funny and witty at times. he's hardworking and loyal to the home unit. he loses his temper out of the blue in light of pent-up anger. he curses and swears. he shouts and is vulgar to his wife and children. yet he is the man whom i call 'daddy'. he does majority of the housework. he is always there for my sister. he tells the best jokes on earth in the funniest ways. he protects me in his own way. he loves my mother despite the quarrels and arguments. he loves my sister and sees good in her beneath all the disrespect and rudeness he gets in return.

she works darn hard for the family, for herself, for money and reputation. she is the most well-spoken person at home and she writes fluently. she is patient, loving, adoring and anything nice - only when she deems fit, as and when she likes. she is financially capable and independent. she quarrels with her husband often and will not admit defeat in an argument. she might keep silent and look dismayed, but she will think no wrong of herself. she contradicts herself but her arguments are often proven valid by herself. she is my mother. she loves my dad alot, a bold thing for a woman like her to try. she adores my sister and willingly gives her what she herself wants and wills to give; again, despite the arrogance and disrespect that return.

i - i'm home. and while this may not be a typical day at home, this is one of those days every week that i would do anything to avoid. i give, i give, and i give again... if i'm still unhappy and upset, if i still get disappointed and rejected, if they do what they seemingly do best, all i could do is to give...

give what? in a family, it's called 'give in'.

dear God, as a continue to love the people i love, teach me to love my family - even if it takes for me to start over and over again. thank You, Father. Amen.

creation4

2010-01-26T15:59:00.001+08:00

BAND3

2010-01-25T00:12:00.002+08:00

=] =] =]

zzz... =D...

-.-... -.o... -.-... o.-...

:]... =]... =)...

=D!!! AHHHHH!!! =D

BAND2

2010-01-25T00:07:00.002+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

i'm still very *h_i_g_h* from thinking about band!!! =D

ARRRRRHHHHHH!!! =D

i'm gonna D-R-E-A-M about BAND tonight!!!

BAND

2010-01-24T23:56:00.002+08:00

i miss the feeling of sharp anticipation while standing backstage... i miss the fear the my lao-gong's slide [my trombone slide] will hit my music stand and every stand on the trumpet-trombone row will fall like dominos... i miss being so exceptionally excited before each competition and major performance that i sleep 3 hours and feel total refreshment and rejuvenation... i miss the times of HIMB... i miss SRJCSB...

when i became Section Leader at sec 3, Band Major ShuAn wrote a letter to me saying that she knew my section was in good hands... she told me something i will never forget not regret...

once a band member, always a band member...

practices are mondays and saturday mornings... =/ hopefully i can go saturday morning... =D

the feeling of stepping into the band room is like : AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

can't stop smiling!!! =D

creation3 - stoopid.

2010-01-22T00:39:00.000+08:00

SHOES!!! =] =/ =( haix... i don't even need them... but i like... ARHGGGGG.

creation2

2010-01-22T00:37:00.000+08:00

God is my answer... what's yours? =]

creation

2010-01-19T22:10:00.000+08:00

=] i like.

crying versus peeing

2010-01-19T20:37:00.002+08:00

crying... the release of emotions - frustration, fatigue, agitation, agony, grief, sadness, fear, confusion, and so many more... feels like peeing the batch of pee that was held in for a very long time...

what is this to you?

2010-01-16T01:10:00.000+08:00

opinion... not influence.

there was a Story

2010-01-16T00:32:00.002+08:00

there was a Particular Room.

there are a few Doors to the Particular Room.

each Door can be opened through several Methods - knocking, shouting at it, banging, using a crow-bar, searching for a key to try the lock IF IT IS LOCKED... or just turning the handle, if it's not locked...

i cannot understand how Person can bang and scream at the Door, and not notice the Other Door...

sick2

2010-01-14T22:58:00.001+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R12QVtuB0_Q&feature=video_response

i miss Michael Jackson's era...

sick - fever - bode ache - blaaaarrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

complain

2010-01-13T09:57:00.005+08:00

it takes alot of effort to make a person look good... but why do people see it as a need, rather than a want?

fever... flu... nose stuck... shoulders ache... i'm dying...

HARHAR drama!!! =]

i dreamed a dream

2010-01-12T23:05:00.001+08:00

a white dog in my dream... but not really white... 'Dark White'... =] woh-woh... =]

i miss the 'glory days'...

2010-01-11T00:36:00.003+08:00

in the olden days [of my life i mean, haha], glory was plain old band, 'Go West', marching, foot drill, getting scolded, scolding juniors, practising till mouth perpetually smiles, being afraid of SLs and BMs and DMs... we get tonnes of disgusting music time and the occasional hair-lifting effect...

the way the hair-lifting times make do as compensation for the times of horror during rehearsals... it's like... i dunno... it's like a mother going through pregnancy and raising a horribly naughty child, just to get a weird but very real sense of joy in just loving her child... totally not worth it, but in the end it feels totally right...

i miss my piano, i miss band, i miss the 'glory days'... i can give it all up to make way for school, family and for ministry...

am i in the position to question if it's worth it? i have the choice - commit my time to band and piano, or give it to His church...

Jesus is Lord, still is, always will be

2009-12-31T21:48:00.002+08:00

reminder: every open wound, every lash of the whip taken, every drop of blood, every tear shed and ever so much more, Jesus came for you and me, for him, her, 'those people' and everyone...

shut up allison

2009-12-15T23:20:00.000+08:00

This is the last of it.

blogging is lame?

2009-12-12T00:33:00.001+08:00

just got this vibe that blogging is super trouble some and too ineffective in conveying my thoughts...

i should just kill my blog and ... hmmm...

*blank*???

2009-12-08T23:30:00.002+08:00

i am strong, i am smart enough, i will overcome, i will win souls over to the Lord...

my family - impossible.

Dear God, i would like to give up on my dream... if You think i can still take all this, please give me abit more strength because i feel like snapping my lifeline... so, since Your way is the best and the only way, may Your will be done... sorry for doubting You...i can't take all this, but i still love You...

t.s.u.r.t.

2009-12-03T23:15:00.002+08:00

difficult to earn, easy to lose...

impossible to interpret, only possible to be attained, not obtained for free...

why people say girls have '6th sense' and have 'women's intuition'... to me, it's just a 'somehow i know' kinda thing... worst part, to me, is that sometimes when we know something we don't want to know, we gotta make the shitty decision of whether to let the people involved know that we are aware...

cousin stella's wedding this sat!!! =] yay. excited?

seeing them... getting married... how they still argue... i'm thinking, why do couples disagree and make it more difficult to arrive at a consensus? would marriage mean that 'couple-hood' becomes boring and no-fun? would being married mean being serious and mature all the time?

studyWAR

2009-12-01T23:58:00.002+08:00

why i do the things i do - for the people around me... why i study, for my family...

i think different people have differing perspectives to what is important... i think different people have differing views towards one same issue... i think different people will have differing solutions to problems... i think different people have differing levels of commitment... i think different people may or may not know when to joke and be serious... i think different people have differing expectations of self and others...

i think - i'm different.

books and paper

2009-12-01T01:37:00.002+08:00

studystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudy

*ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh go crazy... -.-

Dear God, I am getting fatter... good and bad, ya lar... if You don't want me to be fatter than i am now, please make me less hungry. Thank You.

i googled 'SLEEP'

2009-11-27T01:09:00.002+08:00

i found:

- maternity pillows, called pregnancy body pillows

- 'hug-me' pillows, which is shaped like half a person's torso

- Hizamakura Lap pillow which is reported to imitate the 'comfort and warmth' of a lady's lap -.-

- sushi-look-alike pillows

- the 'pool-of-blood' looking pillow (lame)

=] so cool. my dream bed will have LOADS of fluffy pillows. =]

snoring monster

2009-11-27T00:42:00.002+08:00

Snoring is the vibration of respiratory structures and the resulting sound, due to obstructed air movement during breathing while sleeping.

This is for Superman - I DID NOT SNORE.

Let me tell you all about Log-cake. He is a really really cute Tigger. =] He exists at the 7-Eleven near my school. SO CUTE!!! =] he waved at me today! so sweet of him - harhar. too bad he's not mine. =]

*i think i'm stressed. my fingers itch to pluck out strands of hair and i keep looking for scissors. -.- punch me.

=D dear God, i love u!!! muark!

harhar what will it feel like to give God a kiss and a hug? is He like a cloud? will heaven also experience warming from the sun?

LAUGH with me - number 2!!!

2009-11-27T00:26:00.001+08:00

i am going to invent BLUETEEH.

HARHAR!!! funny right!!! =]

were u looking

2009-11-26T23:53:00.002+08:00

i think we need to take a little time to realise that some people in our lives are doing their best for us... even if they don't show results, it is the heart that matters, not the outcome.

selfishness maybe human nature - but neediness is human nature also. yeah u can take, but do spend some time giving as well.

=] cutie pie, i say!!!

2009-11-26T01:07:00.001+08:00

http://www.little-disciples.com/

SO CUTE!!! Lili, u must see this! =]

look here okay

2009-11-25T14:48:00.002+08:00

it's amazing how much ......... u give me. =|

it's also amazing how ...... i can get.

it's STILL amazing how ....... i get hungry again.

=] i am learning to be contented.

* to my dear pretty cell leader, Lili. =] thanks for encouraging me and making my day with your msg today. =] Love ya - God bless u and the work of your hands!!! =]

my sis is the REAL smart one

2009-11-24T23:31:00.003+08:00

chatted and poured out my anger and complaints to mei...

she said i'm being too nice and that sometimes it pays to be bitchy. HAHA only my sister can say that. heh.

haix. too bad i can't.

and i can't believe i sent an email to say sorry to the person who made me mad. this 's gonna scar me for life.

sometimes it is better not to ask what things mean

2009-11-24T23:12:00.003+08:00

*why do u ask? have u got something to be mindful about? if yes, why make the situation more ambiguous in the first place?

i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck...

Allison, have u done this? did u do that? did u remember to ___? did you bring the ___? can you give me ___? do you know u did something wrong in the ___? please edit this. please change that. no that wasn't what i said, i said ___. no, i didn't say wrongly, u must have heard something else. i will do that today. i will send it to you asap latest ___. i can help u with this. but u didn't say that, did u? do this. do that. pick that up. clean this. clear that. pick up the pieces. play this. open this. throw that away. keep that. help me get this...

i declare myself robot of the year - i don't need emotions, i get to keep them in the processing box where a human heart should be; i can do all thing if u ask; if i don't do things it's my fault as always; if everybody else doesn't do it, i will have to volunteer myself; i don't have an outlet for anger because 'i don't have any feelings, i just need to be not-so-affected by it'.

i am a stupid robot - i'm not clever nor witty; i'm always sick with a virus; i leak from my nose; and i need to be constantly fed food.

i suck - yeah, tell me what u think, yes i know what u think.

it's not what u think or he thinks or she thinks that matters. can anybody keep quiet and hear me out? can anybody ask me about anything else other than studies, church, piano and family? suggestion? o i have plenty. how about relationships with the people around me, my responsibilities, what i struggle with, my health...

my dad complains he's the 'maid', my mum studies and is the smartest, my sis is the REAL smart one and has a terrible temper that goes however she likes.

i have to shut up at home, i cannot cry when i'm upset or stressed because dad says i should not have any reason to be stressed. i get scolded for being too quiet. i'm ignored when i make remarks. family events and meetings are told to me like 8 hours before. DO I FEEL LEFT OUT?

yes i do.

i'm sick. i want to stop everything and play dead for awhile. while everybody looks at the outside of Allison Koh i shall spend time with God looking at my insides - including my lungs and my bones that seem to be ageing earlier than supposed.

one double-meaning...

2009-11-21T02:00:00.002+08:00

haix. dad expressed his concern, saying 'very late le, go and sleep lar, you idiot you'.

thanks dad.

thank God is more loving than that - if he called me an idiot and asked me to go to bed i'd probably NO-WAY-NOT be a Christian.

huggies to my Every-lasting God.

and to my dear Superman sleeping in Mac, huggies, sorry i'm not there with u. LOVE U! =]

she is the problem

2009-11-20T19:19:00.000+08:00

even best friends can fall out and separate...

poof - pigeon

2009-11-20T19:16:00.000+08:00

shoot me.

r_u_b_b_e_r band effffFFFFFFfffffect

2009-11-17T00:48:00.003+08:00

i'm a little over-stretched.

do u notice that?

i spend all my time satisfying other people's wants and demands. sick of it. i'm a bird in a stupid pink cage - if u just can't let me fly, shoot me.

charged: GUILTY

2009-11-17T00:16:00.003+08:00

i think i'm a really lousy friend.

i have all the time in the world - 24 hours actually - to spend anyway i like. i can pray, i can do stuff at church, i can do stuff for my family and i can go for meetings...

yet, i have no time for my friends. i've not met a single one of my friends as a 'going out' session for very long. ever since entering UoN, my life was like coin-flipped-over...

piano's kinda boring now, no challenge, no kick, no fun... school's even MORE boring... family's like ARGGGGGg-.-bwvvv=P><

haix. now i know what tired feels like.

along i went

2009-11-17T00:03:00.001+08:00

leader's retreat - i went... hm... fruitful? fun? hm...

blarh... =D

Blue Rose - iLike

2009-11-08T22:43:00.003+08:00

i was bored. i read my own blog posts. i laughed. HARHAR. =D maybe i should replace the 'genius' in 'alli the genius' to 'great'. HARHAR. self-glory. boring...

i'm like google-ing every business term that i don't understand for my econs assignment and i realise all the info i need has to be bought. -.- so i shall crap my entire assignment and pray that i make enough sense to get another near-full marks grade. =D

can't go for leader's retreat. dad went crazy wanted to become buddhist just cos he thinks God stole his daughter. maybe i should ask my dad to put me on an altar and burn me - sacrifice his daughter like Abraham did his son. HARHAR. imagine that. =] can't wait. i've never been roaster before - only boiled and frozen and fried. =]

ar har har... i'm so lame and bored i'm laughing at nothing. ar har har. -.- i played PSP (my sister's) and i kept killing my own mercury ball. sucks to lose. haix. maybe if they had Tigger-coloured mercury balls i'd be more careful about how i swing the stupid toggle. o, joystick i mean. -.- i still think toggle sounds better than joystick. what's a stick gotta do with joy - turning it that when u win it makes u happy? retarded.

o crap. crapping time. HARHAR maybe for Christmas i can CRAP even though i can't RAP. HARHARHAR funny??? =D

alliSunshine::My Song of A Thousand Words

iLIKE

=]

you should know this

Monssy to Monster

AHHHHHHHH iLIKE~!!!

China Tigger

true love isn't all about saying 'i love you'

dear ... and ...

bug & ju - the neh family

turn, new road

to be consumed

to be consumed

saw this; interesting; opinions opinions opinions...

Quote: Klassen & Freling 2000

stress

breathe, then read.

keep moving forward, says Cornelius Robinson (the cartoon guy, not the criminal)

my cute earthly father who FARTED an explosion while we were in the lift -.-

*waves FRANTICALLY in the AIRRRRRRRRRRR*

a TEAM

The Brewing of Soma by John Greenleaf Whittier

The Intrinsic Motivation Principle of Creativity

how dumb man can be

my future

hungry

dear God, i wrote a new song for You today

at the end of the race i see another and yet another

22:22

stools fool

Study hard, and real hard, Allison Koh...

Tigger

the kid fell; Jesus picked him up, smiled and walked with him - Jesus never left

*crazy smile*

brain bubble

my weird dad

you are weird

iLOVE

iThink

look at them

those men and women, they go together

that woman and that man

just thinking

just thinking

just thinking

blar

just thinking

blar

someone said to me

iAM

if and so

if and so

quote

if and so

if and so

one notch higher

iThink

my outer being

i write

her story was sad

M is a no-no

fear factor

Jesus, thank You

Joanna is mad?

hate is a strong word

creation4

BAND3

BAND2

BAND

creation3 - stoopid.

creation2

creation

crying versus peeing

what is this to you?

there was a Story

sick2

complain

i dreamed a dream

i miss the 'glory days'...

Jesus is Lord, still is, always will be

waves FRANTICALLY in the AIRRRRRRRRRRR

crazy smile